The List.

1. I feel my father never loved me because I never played sports.
2. I have contemplated suicide often since elementary school.
3. I'm falling for you. Please don't mess it up.
4. The nights I sleep the best I dream about you.
5. I try to be content, but the truth is… life would be so much easier if I were pretty.
6. I need to change.
7. I love you so much but I can't tell you.
8. I need to get out of this town.
9. I wish I could just walk away. Forever.
10. Sometimes I want to die in a trajic car accident so I won't have to be in love with you anymore.
11. You're the first person I've ever been able to truly trust, and yet you don't even know how much you hurt me.
12. I pray for you every night.
13. I hate every part of my body, except my hands.
14. Every day I type you little text messages. I tell you I love you, I miss you. Have a wonderful day. Please be careful. But I don't send them. I know I'm not supposed to. But I hope that, somehow, you know.
15. I make everyone believe I'm different only because I don't know how to fit in.
16. Almost everything I do is motivated by the desire to be popular.
17. He never gave me a chance.
18. I masturbate to feel good, and I hate myself for that.
19. Sometimes I wish I was born a woman.
20. I have this fear that I'll never passionately kiss a man I love in my lifetime.
21. I know where I am, but I'm lost.
22. My biggest fear is that I will never find a true love.
23. What hurts more than losing you is knowng you're not fighting to keep me.
24. You're way too good for me.
25. I wish my parents could see me for what I am… instead of what I didn't become.
26. I will never be sexy enough.
27. I wish I could get a period so I could have an excuse to be bitchy.
28. I met you one night and I fell in love with you… I was too afraid to tell you and you'll never know exactly how much.
29. I believe that one day I will like myself.
30. I wish my dad said I love you. I can't remember him saying it ever.
31. I'm 23 and I've never been kissed. It's not that I don't want to. It's that no one else does.
32. LOVING YOU SAVED MY LIFE.
33. All of my life, people have told me I'm not special, that I'm easy to replace. I'm starting to believe them.
34. I am a peaceful person who happens to be filled with violent rage.
35. If I had a million dollars, I would give it all away for one more night with you.
36. I FUCKING HATE basketball.
37. I fear that I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life… and I don't want to have to settle in order not to be.
38. I don't know if it will last, but right now, he makes me feel like I can do anything I've ever dreamt of doing.
39. I am homeless and nobody even knows.
40. I don't know what I want but I don't want this.
41. When I'm all alone, I see myself as beautiful. It's when I'm around others that I feel so ugly and flawed.
42. I know you really don't like me. You can stop acting now.
43. I want to be in love, but I'm afraid it won't solve all my problems like I want it to.
44. I don't work out because I see no instant gratification.
45. I fall quickly for guys because I hope each one will be different from the others in that they'll give me a chance.
46. My heart has been broken so many times that the pieces shattered are probably smaller than sand now.
47. I was once "engaged" to a man whom I'd never met who lived 1000 miles away just to make myself feel better about myself.
48. I love myself.
49. I don't know what it means to love myself.
50. I always feel like I have to have the one perfect line that will take away a person's fears, sadness, anger, discontentment, like my one line will cure everything.